this past couple of weeks i had been so overwhelmingly occupied with school and work and some other insignificance (against the prior two), which, perhaps, isn't even worth mentioning. but hey. now that everything (school, at the very least) and the dreaded finals as well as the occasional lack of sleep are over, i've finally had the chance to jot down some of my nonsensical
thoughts on the blog. why? because i can.
now that 2011 is about to be unfolded,
2010 in a nutshell is pretty shitty, alright (even in comparison to 2009, that is). it just dawns upon me that 2010 wasn't what i quite expected it to be. after all the anguish 2009 had brought me into, i wanted it to be the
year. i wanted it to be my
year. i just sort of solemnly wished for some happiness to be dwelled in. in the end, i reckon i welcomed 2010 with too much of an anticipation and with such rush of overflowing excitement in ways that it just subsequently left me in bleak disappointment and a "what? this is it?" ending. nonetheless i can't completely say it has been a horrendous year for me, despite all the huge fights over nothing with my boyfriend, all the drama, school stuff, transfer applications, as well as a million other depressing things i just had to stumble upon. i've had my idyllic moments in between those occurrences (which i'm very gratified by and content with). after all, i'm pretty grateful for another year of life. i feel like i've grown in so many ways (in perspective as well as emotion-wise) compared to last year. and that's a good thing... i suppose.